10 weeks and counting.

My little bunny is 10 weeks and will be 11 weeks this upcoming Friday. I still can’t believe I am becoming a MOM. Wow.

My nausea I’ve at the 4th-5th week is gone however this time, this nausea is a little different. I get very nauseous right after I eat. I feel full immediately after 4-5 bites and it almost feels as though I’ve ate 2 plates when it’s only a few bites. I do throw up sometimes right after eating.

I am tired ALL. THE. TIME. if I didn’t have my daily activities to do and get done, I can sleep literally all day. In fact, today I woke up at 12, yikes.

I do feel my uterus getting bigger although my baby bump is not significantly showing yet. I still can’t believe that there’s a baby growing inside of me.

And peeing. Let’s talk about peeing. Some night I wake up 5-6 times just to pee…even if it’s just a few droplets, I feel like my bladder is always full.

Foods I love are fruits (oranges to be exact). And I’ve always hated the smell of the orange peel on your hands after peeling them. Mangos. And sweets, oh I love sweets. I haven’t had a sip of coffee since I’ve found out I was pregnant but I do sneak in some caffeine at least 2-3 times a week (bad I know). But my Dr. Pepper favorite now has changed to either 7 up or Sprite (no caffeine).

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School is starting in a week. I am not looking forward to go back but definitely excited to just get this masters program completed.

Definitely not looking forward to clinical hours but I need to do what I need to do, that’s all there is to it.

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My husband. Working as hard as ever. I am so proud of this man 🙂

-Kay

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What a year.

I don’t know why I always have a tendency to blog when the end of the year approaches, maybe it’s to reflect on my journey each year and what I’ve accomplished.

Just today, I completed my 3rd out of 4 semester of graduate school. It’s not easy, let me tell you. The time, commitment, and lack of sleep. I see the light at the end of the road but it just seems to far away still. It does feel good to know how fast a semester can pass by but also makes me bummed out to know how much work I still need to do before graduate school ends.

Everyone asks me what I will do after I graduate. To be quite honest, I don’t know. I really don’t. Maybe I just might be a NICU nurse forever or maybe I’ll just fall into a specialty I had no idea I could’ve seen myself in. I don’t know. It scares me because why did I spend 2 years of going back to school to not know what I want to do but at the same time, I find a lot of comfort in the fact that I have a stable and steady job already. I hope things will fall into place.

My husband is living 2 hours away from me, for the time being. He’s out for work. I miss him but I know this is something we need to do for ourselves and most importantly, what he needs to do for himself. He is an amazing husband to me…I couldn’t have asked for a more affectionate, loving, and funny man in my life. Thank you god!

I’m still living with my parents. Yes, married and…. still living with my parents. Don’t judge me. Having a husband who’s 2 hours away, going to school full time, and working part time keeps me busy and on the move. My parents support is exactly what I need at the moment and I am so eternally grateful for my parents, I love them so much.

And….I’m pregnant! This is the first time I am publicly writing this. I am 7 weeks along. I had my first OB visit today. 2 weeks earlier than my normal scheduled OB visit but I was having some spotting and was concerned. I did some lab work and the office called me right away when they got the results that my OB wanted me to come in the following day.

I was a nervous wreck the night before and thinking the worse case scenario. But went in and she told me by Beta HCG levels were much more higher than expected. She thought I might have had twins and had a demise with them. We did a ultrasound and to our surprise, one little bun in the oven with his/her heart beat flickering away at 156 beats per minute.

I can’t believe it. I’m going to be a mom!!! I pray that my pregnancy goes well throughout the entire months ahead and that my little bunny is safe and healthy in my tummy. Omg, I’m going to be a mom!!!!!

Nausea and vomiting is completely gone at 7 weeks. I was the worse at 4 1/2- 5 weeks. I even vomited at work (so embarrassing), but mommas gotta do what she’s gotta do. Not to mention I’ve been so constipated. They don’t lie when they say that GI tract slows down. I pray throughout my pregnancy I can avoid hemorrhoids (LOL). And acne, omg…its in full force. I pray this is the worse it gets and that it goes away, please!!!! I want to feel beautiful during pregnancy.

That sums up my life at the moment. Will try to keep this blog updated as much as I can for my pregnancy.

Much love,
Kay

Clear my mind.

How easy is it to be mad at someone else and blame others for all the faults but then to easily forget your own?

You say that they’re the reason your life is the way it is, that they don’t see how their actions have affected you…yet at the same time you don’t even see how your own actions are affecting others. The story goes beyond how you are acting right now, it’s how you’ve acted in the past and it’s what you still haven’t done to make this whole situation diffuse.

I am angry at the moment. I’m not going to refuse to feel the way that I should feel. I’m actually pretty irritated and as crazy as it makes me sound, I feel like I am a walking time bomb that can just explode at the right trigger.

One thing through this whole experience that I’ve happily learned and accepted is the simple fact that if I can come approach you and tell you what is on my mind or any troubles troubling me, you should be able to do the same should there still be a problem still in the air. However, you haven’t. I’m not going to be the one to address all the problems.

Btw, what’s the definition of an adult? I would like to know.

A new.

This is a new blog site for me.

I am simply trying to become a better person at the moment. Currently and honestly not happy with the person I am today but a strong believer I will be the person I want to be one day.

I love my life, I just don’t want to keep taking it for granted.

This new journey consists of a continuous self growth, family and friend ties, 6 year love relationship, a newly graduated Registered Nurse with hopes of being the most self-less and caring nurse, and all things I would love to share.

Ending this note with one of my favorite quotes: “There are two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them” -Denis Waitley.